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Autistic parenthood: mental load burnout
People tell you a lot about parenting but what they never explain is just how much mental load it takes up: all of it. As an Autistic, Attention Hyperactive person I struggle a lot with mental load. I experience consistent executive dysfunction and I forget things easily. Then I am overly harsh with myself when…
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Autistic parenthood: where has my self-care gone?
I have always struggled with self-care, both physical and emotional, and I still often forget and avoid things which would actively make me feel better: showers, tooth brushing, haircuts, down time, relaxing (what’s that!?). They have always been tasks that I’ve struggled with due to inertia (see Autistic Inertia) and my skipping delightfully around demands…
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My relationship with OCD
Content warning: abuse, cPTSD, intrusive thoughts, self harm. I don’t talk about my OCD very often. Its a very difficult thing to talk about. It sounds both baffling, ridiculous and very scary, and that’s because it is. I have several intrusive thoughts, from one or two a day to near constant. I think about old…
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I wish I could dress like a boy
I have pretty intense sensory processing differences – I get mega tactile joy from soft, light materials and clothing which flows off me. And I hate stuffy, thick, clunky clothing. Tags in clothing make me want to scratch the skin off my body. I find it difficult to wear full length trousers as I don’t…